Well, I think it's truly started to happen. I don't know how or why, but Sunday night, I had some sort of intense "flashback" of my whole accident. I don't know what triggered it, etc. etc. I'll cite stress. It was intense enough to make my body physically ache and caused me to spend most of the night sweating. Could just be remorse for all I know.
I made it through Monday at school being able to joke around and what not, but by the time I'd made it home, that mood was killed. Herein lies the dual nature of what's been going on. I've been feeling fantastic for weeks at a time, and then, this recurring memory comes back over and over until I'm just in a terrible mood for weeks on end. If I actually trusted psychiatry, I'd go see a psychiatrist, but I bet money they'd want to stick me on some mood altering substances just because and not the good kind. When the voices come on, we'll see..... that's a joke.
So, I apologize for any and all rude behavior I've exhibited over the past few months and for the months to come. I'm trying to cope with some of the more annoying consequences of the decisions I've made, and in turn, it's brought this reoccurring nightmare. I'm trying to eliminate one of the main issues that's been bogging me down by the middle part of next month. I hope that helps substantially.
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